Wednesday, January 15, 2020

Note to Self

Dear Self,

          You have been hurt, you have been broken... but you managed to pick up the pieces and made yourself whole again.  It was never easy, you struggled to keep yourself from drowning in sadness.  You had to force yourself to smile when all you wanted to do was cry.  The hurt you were feeling was so unbearable that at one point you just wanted the pain to go away.   

          But somehow in the middle of all the anger, the sadness, the pain and the anguish you were feeling you found the courage to face life again.  You were ready to forgive, but not to forget the lessons you learned.  You were willing to trust and love again.

     You found the courage to look pain in the eye and say, “You can hurt me, but you can never stop me from being happy again.”  

Saturday, November 3, 2018

Hold on to Hope

To the person who feels that life is a constant struggle of trying to break free from the emptiness that surrounds him.

To the person who has been in the dark for a long time, and doubts if he would ever see the light again.

To the person who is at war with his own demons and is so afraid that he might be at the losing end... 

Life may seem so uncertain right now, but never lose hope. 

Learn to look beyond your pain and find meaning in all your sacrifices. 

There is always someone out there who cares for you, do not be afraid to reach out and believe that you can let the light shine back into your life again.

Friday, November 2, 2018


Some people tend to put up their wall so high,  
that no matter how hard you try to reach out 
and climb to the other side,
it just seems impossible...

Sometimes you just have to stop trying, 
because unless they break their walls
they will never let you in
and you will end up hurting yourself in the process...

Monday, August 6, 2018

Dear Doctor...

A letter to all my previous interns who’s now halfway through their residency training and I guess to all physicians and future MD’s out there struggling to make sense of all the toxicity of their everyday life:

Dear Doctor,

There would be days when everything’s not going your way
and you’d feel like giving up, but always remember your goals and dreams
and use that to fuel yourself to move forward.

Things are tough especially when you’re in your first year of residency,
or starting out in your practice... it’s like you’re being tested to see how long you’d last. 
You will fail every so often, but learn from the lessons of every past mistakes. 
Be honest, and always do the right thing. 
Once you get through your first year, things don’t get any easier,
but then you’re much tougher and wiser so there’s nothing you couldn’t really handle. 

Life is tough. There are no shortcuts to get to where you want to be.
I just hope that in the pursuit of your dreams you don’t get lost or loose yourself in the process.
Be compassionate, be empathetic and be kind always.
Hang in there and pursue that dream with passion and determination.

You will get there when you are meant to get there and not one moment sooner.
So relax, breathe and be patient.


A psychiatrist trying to make a difference in this world, one day at a time...

Friday, June 8, 2018


It's past 12 in the morning, and the house is unusually quiet.  While half the world is off to dreamland, I'm still awake and wondering about how things have been for the past couple of  weeks.

The stress of juggling my responsibilities at home and in my workplace, not to mention other things that needs to be done can sometimes be overwhelming.

The issues that come up at work, as well as in my personal life suffocates me that I feel like I'm drowning in a sea of disappointment but I am trying hard to swim back up for air.

I often ask myself why things are not as they used to be, and it dawned on me that sometimes life can stand still and its the people around me that's changing.  Change can be a good thing, but if people change in opposite directions, then it becomes a problem for those that are caught in the middle.

So I realize that it's better to remain grounded.  Constantly remind yourself of who you are and why you're here.  Focus on doing what is right, even if you find yourself doing it alone.

Keep yourself grounded, so you won't get caught up in the chaos that surrounds you...

Monday, April 9, 2018

The Story Behind A Smile...

Behind every smile is a story of strength...
A smile to hide the struggle and overcome the different challenges that one has to face.

When you learn to smile behind the pain, you accept that life will never be perfect,
and that once in a while you will get hurt, 
but that won't stop you from living your life to the fullest.

When you share your smile, you let people feel that no matter how hard life gets, 
they are NEVER alone.

That is why I CHOOSE to SMILE.

Because despite the hurts and disappointments that I have experienced in the past,
 life has given me more than enough reasons to smile every single day.

I smile because I am grateful.
I smile because I am at peace with myself

Tuesday, February 20, 2018

Kiong Hee Huat Tsai

February 16 was declared as a National Holiday in celebration of the Chinese New Year.  So to honor the 25% of me having Chinese lineage, I bought "tikoy", and we actually had dinner at a Chinese restaurant and ordered birds nest soup because I read that it would bring good luck!

So, for those who would be welcoming the Year of the Dog, may you take a moment to look back to the events that have made an impact in your life.

Be grateful for all the good things that came your way, and at the same time reflect on the lessons learned from your bad experiences.

Be thankful for all the people who made a difference in your life.

And as we look forward to the year ahead, remember that there are no accidents in this life.

The things that happen to us is a result of the choices that we make.

So choose to be happy, choose to love, choose to forgive, choose the people you want in your life, choose to be a better person, and above all, choose to do what is right.

So let me greet everyone a belated "Kiong Hee Huat Tsai." or  “Kung Hei Fat Choi” which actually translates into "Congratulations and wishing you prosperity!”

Monday, February 19, 2018

Psychiatric Resident Signing Off...

If I am asked to describe what it’s like to be a psychiatric resident in Sotto, I would definitely describe it as “Life Changing”...

Residency training taught me a lot of things not just in the field of psychiatry, but life in general.  It gave me the chance to help and reach out to patients with mental illness and give hope to their families. It gave me an advocacy to promote mental health and awareness.
It was during residency training that I get to meet and work with different types of people, most of whom I now consider as my friends.

What kept me going for the past four years, aside from my commitment to the training program, was because of the love and support of my family and friends. Thank you from the bottom of my heart..

Life as a psychiatric resident was like being in a roller coaster ride, it had its ups and downs... but it was definitely worth it. There was a time during my residency when I was faced with a lot of personal challenges, I remember my training officer telling me that if I would be able to overcome all the problems and difficulties I was facing at the moment, it would help me become a good psychiatrist in the future, and that is what I hope to be...

Graduating from residency is not the end, but it’s just the beginning of a whole new adventure waiting for me...

My sincere thanks to VSMMC and the Department of Psychiatry for allowing me to continue my service with the institution.  I may be signing off as a psychiatric resident, but I know that bigger and better things are yet to come...

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