Wednesday, May 30, 2012

How Do You Say Goodbye?

How do you even start to say goodbye if you were not even prepared to go in the first place...
How do you find the strength to look them in the eyes and say you're leaving...
How do you tell them it's Okay, when deep inside you're falling part...
How do you hold back your tears and fight the urge to cry your heart out?

I can't seem to find the answer to all these questions.  It's just so hard to say goodbye to something you love to do, a routine that you've become used to.  It's hard to imagine that I won't be seeing all the smiling faces that would greet me when I come to work.  It's painful to realize that I would be leaving behind people that have been part of my life for the past 3 years, my workmates that I have come to love like family.

I can't say goodbye... because goodbye means turning away from it all.  

I would rather say "Thank you" for the friendship, the laughter, and the tears we have shared. 

Thank you for accepting me for who I am.

"Thank You" for all the happy memories that I would always keep with me wherever I go.  
Till we meet again...

Friday, May 25, 2012

Things Will Be Okay

Have you ever felt that everything in your life seems to be working against you?  Things don't go exactly as planned, and you feel at a loss?  Well you're not alone.  I have been in that same place and I tell you it's not a good one to be in.  But I have always been the optimistic type, so I tell myself that things are going to be alright.  I allow myself to cry for a while and then pick myself up together again.  

You may feel down and out.  You may get your heart broken.  You may fall on your knees.  But you can always stand up and start anew.  

Don't think about how difficult life is for you right now, but rather focus on how you can make it better.  

Things happen for a reason.  It may seem hard to figure things out, but it does not mean that it won't get any better.  I believe things always have a way of working themselves out. 

 I can't promise you sunshine and rainbows for the rest of your life.  You may get drenched in the rain, but believe that you'll make it through every storm, and come out a better person.  But one thing is for sure, you will be Okay,  I know you will.

Monday, May 21, 2012

The "Yaya" who made a difference...

The past week has been emotionally stressful for me.  My kids "yaya" or Ate Arlene as we fondly called her, who has been with us for the past 7 years is going home to start a family of her own.  I'm grateful though that even when we found out she was pregnant, and despite her soon to be husbands please of her to come home, she opted to stay with us and help out with the kids.  

For a working mom like me, it is very important to have an extra hand to help out around the house as well as  take care of Andre and Micah.  Arlene was a blessing to us.  She came and helped take care of Andre when I resumed my post graduate internship.  She was also there when I had Micah, and took care of her when I had to leave for Cebu to review for the board exams.  My kids practically grew up around her, she was like family to us.  I never have to worry about leaving the kids because I was sure they were in good hands.  I have proven that in a few occasions when they were left in the house and we were at work, just like during that earthquake in October.  She never panicked even when she was scared herself.  She would always call me when she was not sure of something, especially if it involved the kids.  What's so special about her, is that she takes care of the kids not only because it's her job, but because she truly loves them like they were her own.  All the mommies at school would tell me I was lucky to have Arlene around because they could see how protective she was with the kids.  That is why I know she would make a good mother to her baby.  

I honestly feel at a loss. I have been used to having her around, and surely the kids would miss her. I would laugh at myself because I used to wish she would be an old maid and stay with us for the rest of our lives.    I know it was selfish of me to wish that, but I'm sure either Andre or Micah would take care of her when she grows old because she was like a mother to them too.  But now I am faced with the reality that she would be leaving us and we would soon have to find a new "ate".  I just hope that whoever we find would come close to how good she was, especially with the kids.  

Thank you Ate, you are truly heaven sent.. we would surely miss you!

Sunday, May 13, 2012

A Letter for Mama

Happy Mother's Day Mama!  I wish you love and laughter, happiness and good health.  I thank God everyday because He has blessed me with a mother like you.  You may not be a perfect mother, but you always find ways to be a good one, and that alone makes you "perfect" in my eyes.

Friday, May 11, 2012

Something Daring... Something New

It's Friday!  And I am officially making this an Instagram-Friday Blog day.  I got the inspiration from some of the blogs I am following where they would write about photos they uploaded on Instagram.  

So my very first entry would be this photo I took of myself after getting my haircut.  I have been wanting to cut my hair really short, but I was scared I would not be able to pull it off.  So I would torture myself by looking at photographs of models and actress with pixie cuts or bob cuts.  

But if you want something, it's not enough that you just say that you want it.  Sometimes you must act on it and not be afraid of how it would turn out.  

So one day, I decided to be daring and go for something I've always wanted to do.  Whatever the outcome is, at least I would know how it would turn out instead of wondering and asking myself, "what if I cut my hair short?"

Monday, May 7, 2012

Mama's Weekend Visit

I haven't been able to write the past couple of days.  Things have been so busy at work and as soon as I get home  I need to attend to "mommy chores" which leaves me just enough time to catch on sleep.

But I have so many thoughts I wanted to share, good thing I always bring my journal with me and whenever something comes up I would write them down before it slips my mind.   

One particular story I wanted to share was the weekend that my mother and youngest brother came over to visit us.  They arrived on a Saturday and the kids were excited that they woke up early just so they could tag along when my husband and I fetched Mama and Miko at the airport.  We were a bit late so they were already waiting outside the arrival area, and as soon as Andre saw mama he was really happy he opened the window and was shouting  for them to get inside the car!

We first had breakfast and planned out how we would spend the day.  First on the list was to go shop for groceries, then in the afternoon after getting a few hours of sleep, we headed for the mall and mama bought t-shirts for my brothers, the kids each had a toy and a polo shirt for Ross.  By the end of the day, my stomach was full after having eaten at 2 different restaurants, feet started to hurt from walking around the mall, arms feeling numb from carrying the shopping bags, but so much happier at being able to spend time with the people I love.

The next day  we brought Miko to Crocolandia to see crocodiles and some other animals. He also wanted to visit some other places but since they were supposed to leave in the afternoon, I asked him to come back and visit before school starts in June.

Our ride going to the airport was different from when Mama and Miko just arrived.  The kids were awfully quite and both were clinging to Mama, Andre even said he wanted to go with them to see Papa.  But Mama kept telling them they would be going home to see papa as soon as summer school ends.  I also felt sad seeing them leave so soon, but I understand that Mama could not afford to be away from home for too long since she was the one running the house and making sure papa and my brothers were well fed and taken cared of.  When it was time to leave, I felt I was going to cry so I ended u just hugging Mama, I guess that pretty much told her how grateful I was that she came over to visit us.

Thank you Mama for a wonderful weekend.  Thanks for filling up our cabinets with groceries and our ref with all the goodies that would last for at least 2 weeks.  I pretty much saved up on groceries.  

But most of all, thank you for taking time out to visit me and the kids, sorry we basically robbed you off as what you said your wallet was much thinner when you left, but seeing the kids and spending time with them made you much happier. 

 I know how much you don't like to travel so it means so much to me that you came over even for a day, it also made me and the kids  happier more than you'll ever know.

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Every Single Moment Counts

Whatever life throws at you, may you always find it in your heart to be "thankful" for everything, even for the difficulties you encounter.

Life was never meant to be easy, how can you appreciate the good if you never experienced the bad. 

Enjoy every single moment because you will never know how long it can last.

Never, ever take anything or anyone for granted...

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